It really is true, huh? That sometimes, bad happenings could result in good, even better to best things. Because I, I could attest to that 💖 I would never forget February 25. Especially the 2021 version. Everything is still vivid in my memories and I would be forever grateful for that day 💖 Have already established here in the blog that acquiring enough, quality, and uninterrupted sleep is one of the self-care treats I give to myself. With me knowing February 25th is a proclaimed National Holiday in the Philippines, I planned to catch up on some zzzs then. It was a Thursday, meaning, I was tired from work for the past three days. I did not like what I was doing in my job, that was why I was looking forward to relaxing in the form of hibernating. An additional day off could really be a big help to recharge my being. However... Events were swayed. The astonishing You-niverse controlled that transformative A.M. for me 💖 That supposedly peaceful morning, around eight or nine, my father suddenly called me. I thought there was an emergency or what because my cellphone rang endlessly. But you know? My old man beeped because he asked me to pick up his delivery! I was so excited about this day because I did not set any alarm. Instead, I set my mind to snooze as long as I want. Of course, I was irritated because my goal was ruined. I woke up earlier than expected. And in that kind of way. But okay, okay. I staired down to get his package. Yet guess what? There was no one in front of the house. When I informed Papa, he said the man left already. And so, I got back to my comfy bed, hoping to arrive in dreamland. But then? Pa dialed after a few minutes, informing me that the delivery man went back to send his item. Then, the same thing happened. Mm-hmm! Aishhh! Huh! I just received his parcel after the third try. Klk, 'no. But at least, instead of wasting energy on nothing 💖 God must have witnessed how mad, and sad, I was at that time. All I wanted was a power sleep! Because I knew it, that I was being drained by life already. But I did not even get that simple, little wish. Super stressed by work and family. Even questioning my passion, my purpose, my existence. Fake smiles and fake laughs until I make it kind of phase by then. Plus this. That was why I burst my feelings out. I have tried my best to understand the people around me, and still am, but I could not pull the f anymore that twenty-fifth of Feb. And so I cried. And cried. And cried for hours until I had no tears left in my eyes. I needed it. So reminiscing on it, it is just okay. Even more than okay whenever I come to think of it 💖 After disinfecting Paps' order, I headed straight to my room, my secret hideout that gives instant inner peace whenever my outside world shutters. I laid down on my bed, placed my right arm in a position where I could cover my eyes, then let the tears fall. All alone at home, so I was free to cry my eyes out, not caring if I was sobbing loudly because no one would hear me anyway. Then, when I calmed down already, I checked my social media accounts. I opened Twitter where I already noticed the Pink Mic Guy in the Trending Topics. However, I did not click it. Was not interested in the TTs that morning. Yet I guess, I really was meant to come across this handsome Korean guy singing Fix You by Coldplay in a beautifully different style. A friend retweeted his short clip and it autoplayed, so I was able to peek at it. For some mysterious reason, his angelic voice just touched me. As if it warmly hugged my soul! It was just a few seconds, but my heart felt soothed as he belted out. Clueless how I was that comforted when I heard him too, to be honest! There I thought, maybe the Universe wanted me to listen to Fix You that was why I bumped into it on my timeline, and so I decided to hear the full song on YouTube 💜 Coldplay is one of the best bands that has helped a big part in my growing years. Their lyrics are deep, but absolutely relatable. Actually, Fix You is my most favorite song of theirs. And as said, my gut told me to devour myself to this healing song, so I typed it on YouTube. But you know what happened next? It was not just Coldplay's version that popped! I saw the familiar pretty-boy face on MTV's thumbnail video too! Having my ears attracted to that powerful bridge sang by this cute oppa, I opted to play their cover instead. They, because yup, he was singing with other six adorable boys. There I knew, the person that fate introduced to me is a BTS member! The iconic idols performed at MTV Unplugged Presents where they sang four of their songs. But, they also featured Fix You. The MTV Unplugged by BTS was uploaded the day before I managed to see it. Seemed like I was a day late, right? However, I believe that everything has always been right on time. From the very beginning, the Pink Mic Guy trend to Twt timeline to YT search, up to this day -- a year after I met the seven wonderful boys, all these have happened for a great reason and I sincerely thank the Heavens for this 💜 Still laying on my bed, I listened to the Fix You ver by Bangtan Sonyeondan. I know the words from the song since I was playing Fix You by Coldplay on my iPod. You read it correctly. iPod! So it was long ago and been a while already. But then, the BTS cover is really something! Their version straightly pierced through my heart. However, not in a hurtful way. Actually, in a relieving way. Them singing a song like this, they are like solace in human form, sending implicit messages that it is normal to feel pain, that it is beautiful to feel distressed and there is nothing to worry about because they would be by your side. I chose to repeat Fix You for hours since I could relate to it, especially at that moment. However, I preferred the BTS ver because I already knew, it has changed me. Listening to it was a perfect time to emote and think things through, so I did. Tuning on over and over, mm-hmm, I teared up again. Reflected again as well. But this time, I became much, much, much better compared to the first cry. In all honesty, after the Fix You loop, I looked for the other vids from the MTV Unplugged Presents: BTS. Afterward, I found myself tracking BTS songs already. Whilst enjoying their music, I was reading their song lyrics that amazed me sooooooo much. I then told myself, ah, I think I already am a fan. Then the rest was history 💜 As an avid MYX viewer during my teenage years, I for sure heard of Bangtan Sonyeondan and/or BTS as the channel features all kinds of Hallyu music. Though I gotta admit, I stopped listening to Korean Pop after the Girls' Generation, 2ne1, and Super Junior era, so the K-Pop groups after them are unfamiliar to me. But as said, I was a casual listener, so I think I witnessed DNA and Idol peaks since they topped the charts. As I visited BTS' account to listen to their music, I was shocked that my favorites like Boy With Luv, Make It Right, and Waste It On Me are theirs! To be honest, I like the shuffles of Spotify because I care more about the sounds I am listening to than the singers, so I had some woah moments when I checked them out. I really was exposed to Bangtan for a long time already, but I guess, it still was not the rightest time to meet them properly. Though actually, see, there were signs. Weeks before the day one, I was getting close, little-by-little crossing paths with the seven boys. Because my sister, she is a pandemic ARMY. She was crazy with BTS' Life Goes On at that time, like she vibed to that playlist whenever taking a bath and while doing the laundry. So I was last song syndromed too. Hihi. Then one night, le sis searched Lights on our Smart TV while using my YouTube account. And there, I got to watch them too. Suddenly, I was hooked on Lights by BTS, just as simple as that. Not complaining though. The music, the lyrics, and even the video are just impressive for real! But there is one part of the MV when three people are staring at this one guy outside the cinema theater, and each time I see this scene? I always react violently because I wanna protect the only boy from the potential bullies' looks. And wahahahaha, my sissy knows of this! Although, I did not know that the person I was defending from the trio and the man I always ask in the second part of the video is just the same person. Sissy confessed that she almost punched my face because I kept on blabbering "ang gwapo naman niyan, sino nga yan teh" whenever Lights MV was on the TV. She kept on answering me though. As I could not recall the member's name all the time. Haha! Sorry, but the Tannies really looked identical to me at first. Yet right, it has always been Jin for me. True story from my elder sister that I always look out for him without me realizing it. Yun pala kasi, I would have an unforgettable moment, my own moment that would make me stick the name of Kim Seok-Jin on my mind myself! Even engraved in my heart. And connected to my soul. Forever and ever. Seokjin really came to me to introduce himself. I never called for him, but through The Force, he swiftly arrived to save me from the abyss. As if K-drama with the most perfect timing and sweetest love story. Aww, right? Still kilig reminiscing about the meet-cute! Aigoooo 💖💜💖 Really, really, really though! Even when the South Korean superstars are that famous all over the globe already, I do not know much about BTS back then. I kid you not that I had no idea the cutie whom I saw on my feed was the Pink Mic Guy that was trending. So I pondered, no matter what I do, our paths would really cross that messy-but-beautiful Thursday because that was meant to happen by the great, great Universe. Heart heart to my Kim Seokjin for being my gate to the BTS-ARMY world! Yes, Seokjin's worldwide handsome face is known to be undoubtedly charming. However, BTS Jin is more than his heavenly visuals. His emotional and passionate vocals captured my heart and broke into my soul. When Jin said, and I will try to fix you, it really is true. Getting to know this fine man, I have been inspired to not just be a pretty face, but to be wise, funny, hardworking, disciplined, poised, level-headed, and authentic to the self too, just like him. To become a confidently be-you-tiful person is the goal, right? And so you know it, this ama-jin, le-jin-dary jin-ius is very special to me! Not overacting when I state that Jiniya birthed me to life again. For he truly did! He has helped me live a simpler but better and happier life unapologetically. And I, I would be forever grateful for the wondrous impact t h e Kim Seokjin has brought to my blue-me-ng world. Would talk more about my Seokjinnie in another post. But that my friends, was how I met the greatest love of my life 💜💖💜 TinyTAN's animation music video of 00:00/Zero O'Clock is the best representation of my relationship with BTS and Jin. All the things I said in this blog, I also told these to my sister, even my Mama, Dada, and friends. Since sissy asked how I officially became an ARMY, I shared with her my emotes that memorable Thursday morning. After my storytime though, she searched this Dream On by TinyTAN through BANGTANTV, and we watched it. Both of us were like woah because my reali-tale has the exact same pitch as the MV! As I said, I was starting to feel sad and mad and anxious and stressed and all about life. Weirdly surprising, I had the same eyes and same energy as the protagonist in TinyTAN's music vid for days then. And actually, the fam informed me that they noticed it. I was totally astounded that the girl's laying form on the bed was the exact position I did before and as I listened to MTV Unplugged Presents: BTS too! My sis then confirmed that she was not imagining things. My outburst has really alike scenes with the vid! More so, when the BTS TinyTAN characters unexpectedly popped out the glowing door to cheer the lonely girl up. Then Seokjin sent the iconic hand kiss. Then the heart flew to the pretty woman where Kore turned realistic-like. Yup, yup yup! Like me, I had no idea of what was happening, so I just indulged in BTS' cover of Fix You, and that comforted me. And! Destiny could be, Seokjin kissed away the pain I was feeling inside. Like in the MV as well, Jinnie is the first one who touched my fragile soul. Thus, the member who welcomed me to the superb BTS Universe. And since that moment, I was able to open up my heart again, trust the people's power of kindness, and shift my perspectives for brighter things in life ahead. I observed that the bida is dressed with a shirt-pants-sneakers-backpack combo with a big bun hairstyle as well. And to tell you, my officemates could prove too, that has always been my normal office look since 2017 because I commute and ride the busy trains of MRT, so I gotta be comfortable while being in style. What a coincidence, isn't it? As I sight the lucky girl roaming around Seoul with the purple whale and TinyTAN, I remembered that I was supposed to go there if only COVID-19 did not take place. Life in all places on Earth are different from pre-pandemic and now. But still, hopefully, I could visit South Korea soon! In addition, I love that the lead also has a deep passion like me. Piano for her, b/vlogging for me. It really is upsetting not to live the dream, and just be stuck in a practical job, just so we survive in this capitalistic society. So, I could definitely relate to that inner implicit conflict. Also, the Cinderella skit hit and has hit me hard. My favorite Disney movie since I was young, yo! Attached because it has an Ela/Ella in the main char's moniker. Plus, the makeover story itself. That every midnight, life could change, but it is all up to you. Here in the touching MV, I was reminded of the moral lessons all over again. So much feels, so many thoughts, so I was crying a river while streaming Zero O'Clock, especially the very first time! I still sob from time to time. I just could not help it. Happy tears though. Because this is such a heartwarming and soul-cleansing animation video! It has digged me, it motivated me to move, it sparked my fire, and most importantly? It was as if I see myself here! So I was able to discern and could contemplate the next steps that I should do just by watching this MV. At first, sis only wanted to check if the graphical memories were all in her mind. But shookt how bits of my life slash my BTS story and the TinyTAN Dream On music video are carbon-copy! Legit, eh. So gotta agree, 00:00 is my song, my BTS anthem indeed! As a person who fervors starts and restarts, plus the animated video, and the relatable lyrics of the song, Zero:00 by Bangtan Sonyeondan really is mine! It is absolutely one of my fight songs! Then you know, after watching the three-minute-plus-thirteen-seconds clip, I really knew in myself that I would become a solid BTS ARMY. And voila, look at me now! Already a year has passed, woohoo! TBH, I do not know how KSJ and BTS did it to me too. They have what it takes, that is right. Yet at the same time, they seriously have these magical powers, mysterious charms, such secret healing capabilities through their songs, shows, and even just their existence. I could not express enough how these seven kings made a big difference in my life. There are sooooo many things to say about that! But okay, okay. Maybe I would try writing a post next time. Right now though, as I end this journal feature, all I could say are kamsahamnida and borahae! Stated this lotsss of times, I know! But I wanna reiterate that I truly, truly, truuuuuuuly am forever grateful to these seven South Korean guys who have brightened my darkening soul, lifted my sinking heart, pushed my being to live, love, and dream at its highest. I always, and in all ways, purple you! Jeongmal saranghamnida if you only knew! Mahal na mahal ko kayo so much, Kim Namjoon, Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, Jung Hoseok, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung, Jeon Jungkook; BTS!!!!!!! Similar to today, it was really real cold back then too, but in a flick of a snap, my springtime came early that 25th of February 2021, and I would never ever eveeer forget that wonderful Thursday because it was the d-day you, Bangtan Sonyeondan and I started this beautiful journey together 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
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THE BLOG-GIRLE L A M A N I L A Ela Mones, a Filipina girl,
is a passionate lifestyle blogger who loves to express her unforgettable life experiences and best moments through words, photos, and videos 💖
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