While writing this blog post, I realized that if I would tell how I ended up with this Start Of Something New vision, and thus the Breaking Free mission I am living on, by every detail + with all those feels and side thoughts, this would take really, really, really looooooong! I tried drafting, but it seemed like it was going way too personal already. I would just try to speak about the journey in the simplest way possible. I wanna release this life-changing plot without crossing the limits of oversharing. So... It all started when I was fourteen to fifteen. At first, I was just goaling for change. As in, just change. Change in general. Like change for the better, something like that. It was kinda vague how I could do that so-called change. But that is really the starting point of this vision I am holding on to now 💖 I adore myself for who I am. Grateful for the undeniable cuteness, natural wits, real low-keyness, and all those blessings the You-niverse poured into me. But with all the typos and posts I had read and saw on Tumblr, I got motivated to change even better. Together with the role models my Mama insisted me to look up to and my ideal person Gabriella Montez, I was more and more inspired to do big changes in my life. I reevaluated myself and my life then. Like where I was at that moment and where I want to be, and from there? Yes, even at that young age, I tried making a few baby steps! I was doing good. However, along this path to changing the self for the better, I caught feelings for someone. And that is correct, additional inspiracion again. I tried to be prettier by dressing up and this was when I knew my passion for fashion. I also proved that I could excel in other activities other than academics to show how versatile this girl. Been balancing all acts, the beauty-and-brains and strong-and-independent that I am and aim, since then then! But still, he rejected me. I was devastated and almost gave into avenging. But from this rollercoaster incident, I realized a number of things... 💖 Waiting might be an enigmatic mystery, but really though, the Universe's perfect timing definitely pays off! Exhibit A would be me accepting who I am and loving her better, so a few months after, this same person who rejected me bravely risked a confession of love to me, and this made us both excel as he was the high-school valedictorian in our school and I was part of the top 60 at the end of the acad year. Exhibit B would be the golden college days where all I wanted was to be a university scholar so I could help the family with the expenses, but it turned out that I was even the top three of the batch. While the Exhibit C? This January 2021! Which I would talk about in the next Life post, yay! And while it is also important to have motivations, inspirations, and the like? From there, I understood that this "change" can only happen with love—particularly with self-love, especially when combined with God's love, and of course, with humanly love. Yes, I do love myself and accept all that I am. But this is also why I have been trying and working to reach my highest potential whilst knowing every strength, every weakness, every beautiful and messy bit of me because that is who I must be! Contemplating from then and on, these things I have been doing all my life must be done for me. Not for impressing other people. But for me. Me and You and them loved ones! 💖
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THE BLOG-GIRLE L A M A N I L A Ela Mones, a Filipina girl,
is a passionate lifestyle blogger who loves to express her unforgettable life experiences and best moments through words, photos, and videos 💖
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